The same person who makes me happy, makes me unhappy…



"I don’t really like people, but it’s difficult to get comfortable with loneliness. I mean, I’ve tried to have friends, but it never works out. And I’m tired of going out alone. I’m ok staying in at my place. It smells good when I burn incense and I have a lot of records and I can just play video games.” 

The bus she was waiting for arrived. “Do you need to go?” 

"It’s ok. Another one will come in ten minutes… But then, you know, sometimes I just want a partner— a relationship. It would be nice to share this part of my life with someone. I’ve been single for years, and you know, there are people I could call if I wanted to. But people always end up saying things that rub me the wrong way, or if I open up to them, suddenly they want me to be their best friend, and I don’t want people to have expectations of me. I don’t want to waste anyone else’s time if I’m not interested in being close to them." 

Another bus came and went while she told me about the loneliness, wiping tears from her eyes. Then another. “I’m sorry, I’ve talked too long.” 

"It’s really ok. Sometimes we just need to connect." 

"Yeah, I forget that sometimes."


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I thought I was getting better. I had 3 breakdowns today. Like shaking, crying non stop, hyperventilating, and worst of all grabbing a pillow hard enough to stop myself from thinking of where I could find a blade….maybe I should seek help. Maybe I can’t help myself afterall.

"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn’t make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more."

Nicholas SparksThe Last Song (via feellng)

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"I taste the good and bad in you and want them both."

Anita Ofokansi, Literary Sexts (via sadgirl1017)

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"A pretty flower but a foul odor, is that all men want in women nowadays?"

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